3 MONTHS UNTIL MY WEDDING AND I GAINED WEIGHT

Aku nimbang hari ini. 

And what the hell..

I gained WEIGHT!!! 

Padahal rencana mau ngurangin 2-3 kilo malah NAIK 2-3 kilo! DAN AKU UDAH FITTING!

THIS IS BAD. VERRRY BAD.

I'M 3 MONTHS AWAY TO MY MARRIAGE AND I GAIN WEIGHT INSTEAD!

I mean, it's not like I didn't give any effort. I've finally maintained going to the gym 3 times a week. And I tried using a weight loss app -which sucks. The coach is always late when counting the calories. She said I don't need to worry about the calories as long as I go with the guide, but then what's the use of making the feature in the first place?? They don't have that many food in their library too, so I have to input everything manually MOST of the time. So, I stopped....

Though I do admit it has been a stressful end of the semester for me, so I've been sleeping a little less and eating more. I decided to cut down snacks, and have large meals instead 3 times a day. But, apparently that didn't work well for me. 

I've succeeded once. I lost 11 kilos before. And have been considering to go back to how I did it last time. Maybe I should? I mean, it IS pretty urgent. 

OK, maybe I should write down some of the to-do list that I'm going to do, starting from today:

1. Drink a lot of water (especially when craving)

2. Gym 3 times a day. 

3. Limit rice intake (4 spoons).

4. Only eat 1 fried food a day (better if none at all).

5. NO durians.

6. NO snacking sweets/chocolate (if you want cut down the sweets and eat it in small pieces)

7. For breakfast eat a couple of whole wheat bread/5 white egg. 

8. Walk A LOT. 

With my 60 kilo weight.... Let's SEE how I'll progress.

Lord, help me to remember that nothing is going to happen today that You and I can't handle together. Cause I really need to be in a good shape. AKU UDAH FITTING :')

A Teacher and a Soon-To-Be-Bride... Who could've guess? (Not ME definitely!)

Wow.

Aku lupa banget kalau aku punya blog ini. Yang udah aku tulis dari SMA... dan sekarang aku udah umur 30 tahun!

Dan baru akan menikah dengan Gby!!

Yes, I'm actually getting married to my long-time boyfriend and it's going to happen this year!

Bahkan beberapa jam lalu aku video call via Zoom sama Gby untuk ngomongin beberapa persiapan yang udah urgent harus dipenuhi.

Rasanya lucu baca post merayakan ultah ke-17 Gby di sini, dan mengingat sebentar lagi juga akan September, dan Gby akan berusia 30 tahun. It's been 13 years since I wrote that post! Gilak! 

Sebenarnya lebih gilak lagi dan kaget juga Blogspot bisa bertahan selama ini sih, honestly.

I'm happy to found this blog, sambil geleng-geleng melihat ulah-ulahku dulu. Time does fly. Post terakhir aku ngomong soal Life Talk Asia... I have to update to you at least that I'm no longer working there. Sekarang aku jadi guru, School Counselor dan Christianity Teacher lebih tepatnya. Aneh banget ga sih?

Nggak?

Biasa aja?

Karena sebenarnya ini ANEH BANGET even for me!

Walaupun aku emang ga ada nulis cita-citaku sih selama nulis blog ini, tapi yang pasti aku ga pernah membayangkan akan jadi guru, that's for sure.

Gak membayangkan akan hadir di after party graduation mantan murid:

Ini waktu aku jadi Wali Kelas 3SD sekaligus guru Reading, Life Skills & Math (2018)

Ini acara after party Graduation mereka dari tingkat SD (2022)

Gak membayangkan ngajar agama Kristen (and doing it online due to the Pandemic):

Gak membayangkan juga akan jd konselor di Sekolah!

Walaupun ya setelah aku liat ke belakang, aku paling suka nulis tentang orang-orang di sekolah sih. So maybe the signs were there? 🙈

It's still pretty mindblowing for me though. So different from what I envisioned for myself. Termasuk nikah di usia 30 tahun. I thought it'd happen sooner. But it didn't and dang it, I'm TOTALLY fine with it!

The surprise proposal on February 13th

...and the Engagement at my house (July 2nd)

And soon I'll also have another mother who will give me her family name, karena begitulah adat Batak. I have the picture, but won't be posting now. Tunggu aja tanggal mainnya nanti ya, Marhori Dingding dulu akhir bulan ini. Siapa sangka coba akhirnya aku bakal menjalani nikah adat? Setelah bertahun lalu aku tulis makalah soal nikah adat di kelas Sosiologi (Yang sampe sekarang aku jg ga inget aku nulis apaan 🤣 biar keren aja aku mention pernah nulis makalahnya dulu.)

Literally NOTHING is going according to plan. But I'm loving every twist and turns. Although there are times when I hate the plot twists, but I still wouldn't want it any other way. After all, God had proved my judgements to be wrong a lot of times, so, why even complain and look back at all the bad times? 

Anyway, I still have my mantra at hand, that little prayer I always tell to myself:

Lord, help me to remember that nothing is going to happen today that You and I can't handle together